Real Love

(Dedicated to Triana, a daughter never born,  (8/31/1999)Redwood Shores, CA)

 

Its real love! Darling! Babe!

It’s not affected by -

Your reckless driving

Totaling my car, ruining my insurance!

Yelling that you never loved me!

Undermining my home and institution!

Irritation about my height and look!

Criticizing my songs and thin voice!

Disliking my hearty cooking!

Boy friends you collect on your way to nirvana!

Physical scars you left on by body and face!

Times you test my commitment and patience!

Leaving me sleepless alone!

Instigating pains for hiding the truth!

 

Because, the only thing that matters to me

Is I love you from day one

When I first met you

When I called you my wife at our first dance!!

 

Because I know that despite all your denial -

You loved me, you cared for me!

You waited for me everyday at the train station

With full faith that I will be there!

You taught me swimming and biking

Adding to my knowledge reading bed time stories !!

 

You cared for me when I was sick!

I cared for you when you were sick!

You protected me when I was in trouble!

I protected you when you were in trouble!

We had many adventures

Others can only dream of!

 

Yes, sometimes I went overboard

Putting you into difficult situations! But

We sang together, we danced together,

We performed together, we produced together!

We solved difficult problems together

Working late through snowy cold nights!

 

We camped together, canoed together,

Even attended winter camping together!

We visited amusement parks together

Rode most rides in the world together!

We cooked together, we served together,

We had parties and fun together!

We drove together thousands of miles

Mostly through wilderness and wild wonderlands!

 

We biked together through parks and allies

Playing hide and seek game!

We kissed each other, hugged each other,

Made love in many unusual places!

We taught together, we composed together,

We volunteered together for world's causes!

 

We prayed together, we worshiped together,

We argued together, we convinced together!

We recorded together, we published together,

We learned from each other, appreciated each other!

 

Honey! After all these togetherness,

You may keep saying that you never loved me

That you always hated my attitudes

And I would know that they are true

But I better keep on hearing those unpleasant-truths

Than living without you!

 

Baby, I love you, really love you, only you -

And can’t live without you, can’t breath without you

Because you are blended in my mind

Because you are blended in my soul

You are always in my thought

How can I live without you -

Its real love; we were meant to be each others!

 

Author: Deepak Sarkar, 844 Royal Oak Ave, Victoria, BC V8X 3T2, Canada; Tel/Fax: 250-412-2897; E-mail: kolki@kolki.com; Poetry & Peace Web Site: www.kolki.com